Monday, November 14, 2005
i think everythin's not going well for me.
this is very wrong. heck, i haven't even done I&R yet!
and we have to send in the games by tmr morning 9am. and i have to contact the squash girls on tmr's friendly with ajc. damnit. it's like no one's interested. either they have other commitments or they just dun wanna go. i can understand how they feel. cos to them squash is kinda like a secondary commitment anyway rite. i fully understand.. i'm not being sarcastic. ahh crap. what a badddd time for a friendly to be held.
if u have a problem with that or anything that i'm gonna say along those lines, please close this page or go hide in a corner. i don't wanna hear any shit right now. =(
anyways, i got placed as a game i/c (with a part time role as an OGL) in.. reggie. yea. socks is probably gonna go hysterical but hehe. =D hmm. i still miss the good old zosma days. well, life's like that. we gotta move on but i would very much like to bitch about the removal of zosma. zz. hais. most of the zosmanians have been allocated to alhena. at least thats how i feel. great.. live the spirit. somehow i feel that there's somethin lacking in all of this. u can't blame me for feeling lousy..
as for the OGL camp, i'm very very sorry. i know *** must be damn angry at me. he must be feeling so stressed rite now. i'm sry for having to contribute to part of ur stress. though it's like a small bit. u're pressurizing me. i hate that. i dunno what to say but profusely apologise. i dun even know how to explain to my housemates, much less the council. i promise i'll try to learn everything asap despite being MIA. argh. darnn. i hate myself for being sore about alot of stuff. i wish i could help it but i think i can't.. imagine being at MMM at sentosa with chunwai. and btw it happened to
ME. not happened. is going to happen. (prays hard that pangker would be able to make a switch.) that was the start of the downturn of my mood today. before that to be brutally honest, i was surprised i was put into regulus. not very pleasant. i'm so sorry. and not only that, not put in OGL. haha. i wanted to be, cos can mix around with freshies mah. i was damnn bitter can. argh. ffccuuukkk. besides, even KBL's put as an OGL! there must be some screw up with the allocation of people. but then, all's for the good of the orientation. fuck it, there's just too many major siansations for me.
seriously, i'm not daring enough to split out all my opinions and vent all my frustrations here cos i know if some random passerby sees this he'll prob think i'm nuts or if some mjc student sees this that person will think that i'm unreasonable. perhaps i'll straighten out my thinking after writing this stupid post. i still have my yeeteng in regulus! not to mention she'll be with me durin MMM @ sentosa, W&W and squash camp. >.<
thanks mj councillors for putting in so much effort to make this orientation a success. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:02 PM
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